Just a Mama

*I originally posted this as a status update yesterday.  I asked the mentioned people if it would be okay to post it on my blog as well.  Both gave their assent.  I set about editing what I had originally written to make it more–but I quickly realized I was editing for the sake of editing and that is never a good idea.

 

I’m going to say something about a divisive issue and then run away. I don’t want any negative comments. Only ones that build others, and the world, up.

Anyway–I don’t understand all of the factors or issues [of America’s race difficulties], but I know I have mama friends who are afraid for their brown baby boys. They are afraid of the world their children will face. They are afraid their boys will be seen as less than human because of their skin color.

And that is wrong. It breaks my heart to look at A’Driane and Leelah’s beautiful sweet boys and think of the fear their mamas carry. Why in the world can’t we be people? Just people. Why can’t we go about life loving and knowing people as– people.

I want a day that the mamas don’t have to tell their boys they are more likely to be arrested or harassed than their white friends, when they don’t have to watch the news in terror.

Please Lord, bring that day. Use me today and everyday to bring that day, to teach my girls about now, and that day. I am stepping into something I know nothing about in order to be a mama, just a mama with my lovely fellow mamas.

I’ve Been Avoiding This

You may have read my whining about my stomach issues.

I had tests done.

I went to the hospital.

I got good drugs.

I had more tests.

I took medicine.

I had allergy testing done.

I lived for weeks on a liquid diet.

I cried.

I got no answers.

I had no relief.

But I had a niggling thought as to what it might be.  No, oh no, it couldn’t be that.  I would never be able to give that up.  That couldn’t be what it would take for me to feel better.  The thought continued to bug me.  I continued to tell it to shut it.

Back and forth.  Over and over.

I finally couldn’t deny the possibility…

Processed sugar appears to be my enemy.  You know, yummy sweets.  Candy.  Cake.  Cookies.  Many beloved foods.

Sigh.

Now I know there are other contributing factors.  My medications, abdominal migraines.  Those are a bit out of my control.  But this one–as hard as it might be, I have to at least try.

Last night was a bad night with my stomach…I  had eaten a pop tart and a kids mini twizzlers pack.  I paid the price.  It was not pretty.

My motivation today has been pretty solid.  I have not strayed.  Right now, I am eating baby carrots while one of my girls has a yummy pop tart.  The smell might be about to make me crazy, but the stomach issues feel like they are going to kill me, so…here goes!

Do Your Kids Watch

My girls were introduced to something on YouTube called Kid Snippets.  They would watch them for hours if left to their own devices.  Which they are not.  I have never heard them giggle so much or be so engrossed in something.  And that is saying a lot as my kids can get very focused on media.

I have watched a few of these episodes, and they are cute, but they aren’t quite as fascinating to me.

I will leave you with an example so you can decide for yourself.

 

Thoughts, Thoughts, Thoughts

I am linking up with Love, Jaime for Stream of Consciousness Sunday…so welcome to my brain…

It has been pretty dark in my thoughts lately.  There are thoughts I am struggling with for the first time in a couple years.  Thankfully I have my girls, my hubby, my cousin and an amazing tribe of friends who remind me I am loved and have value.

And I have running!!!  Praise the Lord my legs and muscles are cooperating to let me pound out a mile or two at a time.  I watch Disney movies while I am on the treadmill.  My hubby finds it funny but I like them…and invariably my girls come down at some point and join me so I might as well have something they can watch too.  Otherwise, they want to talk to me and my running isn’t quite easy enough that I want to chitchat much :)

Have a great Sunday!  It is time to get ready for church here.

Overeating–Kid Style

A few weeks ago I was over the moon thrilled to find out I had won four tickets to Pinkalicious the Musical from a giveaway at Mrs. Weber’s Neighborhood.

It was a gift I wanted to give my girls, but just didn’t see a way.  I have entered quite a few giveaways and always hope to win.  This is the first one I prayed about and cried over when Lauren announced I had won.

The girls, especially Patrice, had been extra grumpy all afternoon.  Patrice’s attitude made me wish I could leave her home, but I thought leaving a 4 year old alone would be a poor parenting decision, so instead, I let her crawl around on the floor at the show before it started.

What?  She just got an amazing dose of “build the kids’ immune system.”  Free gift with every ticket.

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The older girls were antsy because I made us get there so early, but they were troopers.

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Then the show started.  The girls were quite entranced.  Thankfully, that included Patrice.

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What’s not to love?  There were cupcakes, a girl who turned pink because she ate too many pink cupcakes, there were fairies, and there was a lesson about not overeating sweets and making sure to eat green foods too!

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It was a marvelous rendering of a very cute book character.  I am so glad we went!!

And the frosting on our night?  I got to hug Lauren, the woman behind Mrs. Webers Neighborhood!

Slam Bam Somewhere Else

I have mentioned a few times that I blog over at Project Semicolon.  I am pleased to lend my words on Tuesday and Friday to this amazing site.  Our goal at Project Semicolon is to encourage, love, and inspire.

Today I am over there talking about the latest round of depression.  It came out of nowhere and has me trying to catch my breath between each wave of despair.

If you want to hear more about where I am, please visit me over at Project Semicolon and read Slam Bam.

Splash of Green

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My children are currently trying to measure the snow.  This is amazing to me.  It has been years since we have had snow stay this early.  Ski resorts are opening early.  Everything this white.

It helps feel more in the holiday spirit.  I am ready for the warmth of family and good food on Thanksgiving and then on to Christmas.

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The Redesign

As you know, I have been trying over and over to get myself sorted out to exercise eat better.  It is finally beginning to come together.

The exercise part has always been easiest for me.  I started doing PiYo 6 days a week.  I love to hate that workout.  It pushes me, it has me drenched in sweat and I hurt afterward, but I can do it.  And I am seeing improvement in my form and strength. I was able to do several side planks today without falling over.  2 1/2 weeks ago I tried to do one, fell and landed on some stuff.  I ended up with big bruises and scrapes.  Today I did them almost no problem.

I’ve also been walking and running.  Last week I did 2 miles straight.  Today I did 3/4 of a mile very easily.  I stopped only because I had other things I needed to do.  I’m getting there and it feels great.

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I still don’t know what to do for my eating, but I’ll work on figuring that out.  The last few days I feel like I have made some progress.  Minus the piece of brownie I had tonight.  I’m hoping I can make changes bit by bit.

As of yesterday, I have lost 4 lbs in the last month and 6 1/2 inches on my waist.  My jeans fit noticeably better today.

Yesterday, I looked at a magnet a very close doctor friend of mine had given me.  She has tried to help me over and over to work on getting healthier.  Her picture is directly in my line of sight when I open the fridge, so I decided to put her to work.  I made a little speech bubble like they show in the cartoons that said, “have you drank water today” and put it over her.  Then I decided my fridge could serve up even more encouragement.  I added things like, has the treadmill seen you lately? Eat carrots instead of chocolate.  Is PiYo done?  Grab some fruit.  Shop healthy.

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*Please excuse the magnets on top of my friends.  It is important to protect for safety reasons where they are exactly.

I am hoping these in your face reminders will keep me on the straight and narrow.

How do you keep yourself on track when getting healthy?  I’d love to hear all your tips and tricks.

I am hoping each and every one of those notes will keep me on the straight and narrow.

A Splash of Homeschool Cute

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Patrice does her first Phonics work with Caitlyn.  She has started book A of Explode the Code

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And kitties came to school today

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A Favorite Song

This is a test, but I might as well share a favorite with you, right?