So, I think one of the valuable things about blogging is the ability to connect us to each other for the spreading of the Lord’s work. Sometimes that is encouraging and sometimes that is uncomfortable and oft times, it is a bit of both. That is where I find myself as I read about MckMama’s experiences in Kenya.
The above link is just one of several days of blogging she has done from some very desolate areas in Kenya. I see her pictures of children and her pleas to have us join her in helping the children of Kenya by sponsorship through Compassion International. And so far I don’t know what my role is.
I have used my twitter and facebook accounts to retweet her updates on how many Kenyan children Compassion still needs sponsors for, and I am thrilled to see that number decreasing (most recent update was 750 children). But am I supposed to help that number decrease through signing up to support one of them? I don’t know.
I am no stranger to sponsorship. I sponsored a girl in China through World Vision for several years until she moved out of the program area. Before that I sponsored a children through Children International. I have also given many times to Feed the Children. And several other ministries.
But what about right now? What is my duty? What is the Lord asking me to do? I have NO idea. I really don’t. Is what we are giving to our church right now, the amount the Lord wants us to give? Are the occassional gifts we are giving what He is asking of us right now? Are the gifts in kind we give what He has in mind right now? Again, I have no idea.
I am scared to give more right now. I work in the auto industry. So far so good for me, but wow, the gloom there is just starting to lift, well maybe not even lift, maybe just thin. How do I take my eyes off that to see what else the Lord wants me to give? How do I teach my girls to be generous when I am too afraid to increase my own giving? I have no answers, just lots of questions that I ask myself on a daily basis. Am I hiding behind my questions? Maybe. Is asking them my way of claiming some action in my inaction? Maybe.
So for now, I continue to ask my questions, while asking you to visit MckMama’s blog to see even more what what she is sharing. Take a peak at the desolation and the hope. Please consider your role, whether it is in your own neighborhood or somewhere across the globe. And maybe together we will find our time and place to jump from doubt to action.