This one is over at The Gypsy Mama. The rules are you can write anything you want about the weeks’ topic, but you can only write for 5 minutes without censoring or editing yourself. This could get dangerous!
The hubby and I had been married for a little over a year. I was still pretty sick, when we got married, with the Multiple Sclerosis. I was in and out of my wheelchair and doing large steroid doses by IV every 3 weeks. It was keeping me just barely under control.
I was talking to my neurologist about me not having children, about making that a permanent decision so we made sure not to have any surprises that I was not healthy enough to care for. I cannot even tell you how much I wanted kids, because I wouldn’t admit it even to myself. I kept saying over and over I was not healthy enough to have kids; kids deserved a strong healthy mama, not someone like me. But my wise doctor said no. He had told me when hubby and I were getting married, “give me two years.” But I just knew that two years wouldn’t bring anything good. How could it when I had been so sick for so many years??? What kind of life was this for kids.
But now that I redo the math, by right now, I was healthy and we were starting our family. And I was really sick with morning sickness. I can never tell that doctor how much he means to me. His hard work, and the work of the Lord, brought me to where I am, a mama of 3!!!!