Sweetness, Crazy, Crazy Sweetness

Nutella…
Nutella!
Yum Nutella!!
Nectar of the gods, Nutella
No bread, just nutella!
There’s the great Pumpkin
Really
See my butt…er…bottom?
Did you see the great pumpkin?
I’m telling you he’s there…
Did you see him?
THERE HE IS!!!!!

Today.  Today is good.  Today is better than I ever dreamed life would be.  A year ago life was harder than I ever thought it could be. A year ago today I went to my midwife and asked her to take my kids home and love them.  Because I didn’t?  No way.  Because I loved them so much but could not figure out how to be mommy to them.  My anxiety was so high.  She let me cry and got me help. A year ago today I spent 24 hours in mental health institution.  It was hard, really hard.  And I can’t really tell you that story today.  I can’t go there today.  But know today is so sweet.  Especially since today, a year ago, was so hard.  Please know if you are dealing with a postpartum mood disorder, there is help, there is hope.  It won’t be an easy journey, but it is worth EVERY.SINGLE.MOMENT of the hard.  If you are walking the hard, please check out my page of postpartum resources, read my posts under depression, contact me on twitter at @signingcharity.  Reach out.  You’ll be glad you did.

Also head over to my friend Ali’s and see how you can pray for her and her family.

Survive til you Thrive!

8 Responses to Sweetness, Crazy, Crazy Sweetness

  1. Hi SigningCharity, I have just recently started facing my issues with PPD. I am beyond lucky to have found the PPDchat communityand specifically, you. You have helped dig me out of the darkness, held my hand during mega anxiety and listened when I needed To vent. You have been so loving, caring ad compassionate even while you are hurting yourself. I cannot find the right words to express how grateful I am, so these will have to do. SigningCharity, you are an amazing woman. Thank you for sharing, and being passionate about helping others thru the darkness.

  2. Margaret (mammacockatoo)

    I know how hard dates/anniversaries can be. But I know they can also be great reminders/yardsticks of how far we've come. You have come a long way in a year. I haven't known you for a year, and I still don't know you well, but I know.

    And looking at those photos, I think you know too. It's just hard to remember right now. I hope this date will become easier for you each time it rolls around.

  3. Rach (DonutsMama)

    I am SO HAPPY that today is a good day.

    And Nutella? A baby after my own heart!

  4. Grumpy Grateful Mom

    You're amazing to be so open with what you went through. What an important voice you are for people who are struggling now.

    And she is such a cutie. That's how I eat Nutella too. 🙂

  5. Hi Charity,

    Firstly, Patrice is just the cutest little baby. And she is the spitting image of her mama! Seriously, she could not look any more like you 🙂
    Secondly, I am SO glad for you at how far you have come in a year. I think you have handled it so well, and are a beacon of light to others facing PPD.
    Praise be to the Lord.

  6. Robin | Farewell, Stranger

    I was thinking about you, of course. You're doing great.

  7. Thanks ladies. I appreciate every one of you for helping carry me through the last year and especially this anniversary! Thank you!

  8. Good days are fantastic. I hope they linger!

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