So Much Swirling in My Head

The last week has been kind of big.  Not in earth shattering changes, but in conversations that needed to happen, personal realizations and an understanding that I have a lot of work ahead of me.

Have you ever had a week like that, where you know you have changed.  And yet, the world around you just keeps going, moving.  And you can’t understand why no one else is feeling the same emotional earthquake as you?

This is one of those weeks.

And it is good.

I am not quite ready to share all that has shook my world, but here’s a bit:

1.  I am glad I am doing therapy along with medication.

2.  I think sorting things out, while uncomfortable, will make me more confident in my healing from depression.

3.  It is a valuable exercise in your marriage or close relationships to have the other person describe you, who you are, to you.  I was blessed beyond words to hear how my husband views me.  He sees a me that gives me so much hope for today and the future.  He sees a me that is capable of growing and reaching.  He sees a me that I can envision him wanting to stay married to.

4.  It is a hard comfort, but a comfort nonetheless, to spill some “truths” you know about yourself and have the hearer say, “I hear the depression talking.”  My first reaction was to take it as a brush off of how I am feeling, but then I thought, no, if these truths I know, aren’t true, I am going to walk in more wholeness and healing (some day).

5.  You never know, when you wake up, when a day is going to turn into one that involves some heavy thinking and conversations.

6.  It’s really good to hear that someone is seeing the effort you are putting forth in a challenging area of life.

7.  And, to not be too crazy serious, it is WONDERFUL to see muscle developing where you’ve never seen it previously.

I am linking up with

Life Ever Since.

Survive til you Thrive!

7 Responses to So Much Swirling in My Head

  1. I am so beyond proud of you. I know exactly how you feel with #4; I always hated when people dismissed my feelings as "just" the depression. The feelings are real, and you have real reasons for feeling them, but the "truths" are not necessarily true.

    If you keep working out your mind *and* your body like this? You are going to be a lean momming machine. So so glad to know you.

  2. Lydia @ See Beautiful

    Popping by from the Moms Bookshelf blog hop. Way to go on the seeing muscles in those never-before-seen-places. That's just the inspiration I need to get out side and get moving today!

    Happy seeing beautiful!

  3. It's great that you can take all the swirling thoughts and put them on paper (metaphorically speaking…). It helps make sense of things doesn't it? It sounds like you are making really positive steps forward. And how fun to see muscles developing!

  4. Rach (DonutsMama)

    Oh sounds like you had such a wonderful week!! I'm so happy that you have a great husband who is so supportive and loving. That's huge. Charity, I think you're an amazing person, even though I've never met you. I see such a sincere and sweet person in you.

  5. I can sense the change pop right through your words. I'm happy for you!

  6. Thank you ladies.

    Pam, now I just have to figure out how to sort out the change, yanno?

  7. Its a new year and you seem to have begun a journey of redefining who you want to be. Good on you, it takes courage to make changes best wishes to you :0)

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