Working out the Struggle

I know you’ve heard the truth that God has set you free

But you think you’re the one that grace could never reach

So you just keep asking, Oh, what everybody’s asking

[Chorus] Am I more than flesh and bone?

Am I really something beautiful?

Yeah, I want to believe,

I want to believe that I’m not just some wandering soul

That you don’t see and you don’t know Yeah,

I want to believe,

Jesus help me believe

That I am someone worth dying for

From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/mikeschair-lyrics/someone-worth-dying-for-lyrics.html

This song was “dedicated” to me by a college friend after I wrote this post  about  being worth fighting the depression for, but admitting I wasn’t sure  Christ came to die for me.

It is aptly named “Someone Worth Dying For”  I love the truth of this song, but must admit I am still grappling with it; I am also working through a lot of other aspects of my faith and personality.

I’ve put a lot of my struggle out here on my blog, but at the same time, there is much I cannot verbalize or express.  It’s hard to have all the words, btu this I know to be true…

God is okay with my struggle.  He knew, before my mother found out she was expecting a baby, what my path would lead to.  He knew about the Multiple Sclerosis, depression and other issues that have arisen.  And, glory to God, He knows the outcome, though I do not.

In what areas are you struggling?  Where is your faith in the struggle?  How can I pray for you today, and in the future?

5 Responses to Working out the Struggle

  1. My faith got hidden in all the depression and anxiety. I feel like I lost my way. I am coming back to church. I still prayed during my struggle with PPD and PPA, but I didn’t attend Mass on a regular basis. Pray for me to continue to open my heart and mind to the Lord and hear his Word.

  2. Charity, remember that we all struggle with faith issues. I would guess you are made more aware of your struggle because of the impact of depression. Probably we should all struggle more to remember and be in awe of the fact God loved us SO MUCH He sent Jesus to die a horribly, gruesome death in order to bridge the gap of sin. I know I live in complacency of this fact more than I should.

  3. I know you struggle b/c you feel unworthy of this life you have–and that is again Velma LYING to you. And you therefore feel unworthy of God’s love. I struggle with that too. I wish I could show you how worthy you truly are. But I will pray that you will come to not only know Truth, but to feel it in your heart as well.

  4. I’m glad that you have your faith.
    I lost mine completely.
    I just can’t go back. Can’t.

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