My Voice

I begin to get upset and obsess over little things when the depression starts to woo me and pull at me.

And when I say little, I mean little.  Like today I felt horrible because I’m not a funny blogger.  I decided that must be why a blogging friend didn’t ask me to guest post.  Le sigh.  Who cares, right?  I mean, dudes, I am barely keeping up with my own writing!!  But nonetheless, I stew.  And stew and stew.  I go round and round in my head.

At the same time I worried that my writing didn’t matter. I’m  not entertaining anyone with my wit and I’m not helping anyone with my candor.

So again, I stew.  Thankfullly, I have a great group of people around me.  I mentioned some of my ruminations to a friend.  She, and another, told me my writing did matter.  And another friend, reallly made it real, when she told me I had to tell my story.  It is my testimoney that no one else can tell.  I talk about the pain and depression when maybe others would stay quiet. (Like right now when I would rather keep my petty silliness to myself, yet here I am, writing it.)

“Embrace who you are, the good, the bad, your strengths and weaknesses….  Your life is a testimony, even the parts you think are insignificant.”

She’s right, you know.  My story, all of it, is mine.  Maybe you need to hear it, maybe someone else does, I don’t know, but here I am writing it.

What do you need to share?  What does someone else need to hear from you?  Write it, say it, own it, celebrate it.



*This post is dedicated to the many amazing women and bloggers I know.

Survive til you Thrive!

4 Responses to My Voice

  1. Your writing does matter. YOU matter. Case in point: Because of your PPD struggles and the candor with which you present them, I was aware and prepared when I gave birth to recognize if I had any symptoms and how to voice ANY concerns I had, both during birth and in follow up appointments.

    As for not being funny, I personally think you have great wit. Yes, it may be hidden under sarcasm sometimes, but it is there. Do you really think your husband would have married someone without a sense of humor? Marriage is too tough to go through it without the ability to laugh.

    Keep sharing. We all need to hear each other’s stories to remember we are not alone in our struggles.

    Love you, dear friend!

  2. You do have a story to tell and it is important and people are listening.
    Blogging is about your voice, your world, what makes you happy, what you want to share…it’s all about YOU.
    Let this space be an extension of who YOU are. Don’t try to be like anyone else and don’t think that being you is a bad thing…you are beautiful friend and your words have tons of power and emotion behind them.

  3. “It is my testimony that no one else can tell.”
    Exactly. 🙂

  4. It’s absolutely your testimony and an experience unique to you! I’m catching up on your blog after falling a bit behind during a super busy last couple weeks. I’m looking for guest bloggers because I have two upcoming moves in May and June. I’d love to add your voice to my blog during that time, if you’re interested. Send me an email if you’d like to. No pressure if you don’t. 😉

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