Medication is absolutely necessary for me, for my mental health. And I think we’ve found the combo that works, if, maybe not, the doses.
But that doesn’t mean I like it. I do not like have three pill keepers to keep everything straight. I do not like the shaking that one of them, or maybe two of them, is causing. I am not fond of the hairloss or hair coarseness the meds are causing. I hate the fatigue three of them cause.
Honestly, today they are making me so tired, I just want to cry.
I will keep taking them. I will keep takking them because they keep away the suicidal and anxious thoughts, the thoughts that would take me away from my family. So, I will fight on and hope the day comes that I am not shaking or so tired.
I will hold my babies with joy. I will take joy in my life.