I have almost everything I have ever wanted.
I have more than what most people dare to dream of having.
And yet I want something I can’t have.
I want to be medication free.
(I would have everything I ever wanted, if I had that)
Having Patrice ushered in postpartum depression and anxiety, which ushered in bipolar depression. And lots of medications.
I hate them. I hate the side effects. I hate needing them. I hate KNOWING I need them, most of all.
I want them gone.
When we had Patrice, I just wanted a baby. NOT ALL THIS.
Don’t get me wrong…I wouldn’t trade her for all the med free days in the world, but that doesn’t stop me from wanting something I can’t have.
I want them gone.
I want what I can’t have.
(If you are an astute reader, you have seen this topic previously, but hey, it is my place to whine, so there you go. Even linking up with Shell at Things I Can’t Say)
Survive til you Thrive!
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