The Pressure Builds

It’s been 6 weeks (give or take) since the last depression.  And somehow I missed the swing to hypomania when that ended.  It was shocking and welcome.

I am, obviously, hoping it continues.

But my therapist correctly pointed out the pressure is building inside.  I hadn’t noticed it, but as I listed off everything going on, she saw it.  She is a student right now, but I think she will do a fine job when she completes her training.

My mind is starting to grasp on to a lot of activities.

I am doing a planks, squats and push ups challenge.  I am doing a cleaning and purging lent challenge and pushing myself to get back on the treadmill.  Then there is the mounting pressure to get meals made and do.all.the.laundry.

Sunday my thoughts were fragmented.  Yesterday I hadn’t slept so was too tired to even try and think. But today, I feel the familiar need to move, do, go…my mind is screaming at me all the things that must be done.

Thankfully, I have a good combo of meds, so maybe they can stop the hypo train, or at least slow it down.  We’ll see.

But, if you are looking for me, I’ll be over here cleaning or cooking something…

My house really benefits from hypomania.

2 Responses to The Pressure Builds

  1. I know the feeling that something is coming, not hypomania, but anxiety. It’s no fun. Keep taking care of yourself and good luck with all that laundry :)

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