I’m sure I’ve mentioned I travel this life with Bipolar as an unwelcome companion. If you missed that announcement, here it is “I have Bipolar Disorder.”
Now that we have that out of the way, I have something else I would like to get off my chest.
I go in for talk therapy on a regular basis. I like the lady and we are working on some tough stuff, but one thing really has me irritated. Every time I go, she gives me an assessment to fill out to gauge my depression. When I first saw her I was in a very dark place. Now, I am in a much lighter place, slightly manic even. Medications are controlling it, so that’s all well and good, but my frustration comes from that evaluation.
She still gives me the depression assessment. My scores have improved quite dramatically. Because of the mania. But she does not use any tool to measure the mania. To my way of thinking, the depression assessment is a completely useless tool if used during times of mania and even useless if used during times of depression if there is no corresponding tool to measure the opposite pole.
If she wants a snapshot of how I am doing, that is all well and good, but is it in any way accurate?
*I really am doing well with the mania. We had to re-add a medication and double the level, but the extreme irritability and restlessness are gone. I am able to channel my energy appropriately and I just look like I get a lot done. I woke up at 5:30 this morning; by 8 am I had been on a prayer conference call, done a short yoga video, eaten breakfast, and run a (for me) quick mile on the treadmill.Survive til you Thrive!