Having a perfect day…and feeling completely broken inside.
Yesterday was Mother’s Day. My hubby and kids did a great job spoiling me. There were chocolate chip pancakes. A skirt that was exactly what I asked for. Homemade presents.
And an 8 pack of diet coke.
All neatly tied up with love.
Still I struggled. The depression stayed with me throughout the day. I kept reminding myself what an amazingly perfect day I was having, truly it was fantastic, but my mind didn’t understand how to act; so there was depression, anxiety, sadness, frustration, and tears.
My very patient husband and I had a good talk about it. He walked me through one of my biggest fears, and I am trying to accept, believe, and know the truth he spoke into me.
But for now, I am giving myself permission to enjoy one of my favorite meals–egg, sausage, and diet coke…and praying my mind follows suit.Survive til you Thrive!