Three girls. I have three girls. I have no idea how that happened–well, okay, I know HOW it happened, I just can’t believe it did even 10 years into this mom gig. I had given up on marriage and kids, but God had other plans.
I have three girls, I homeschool three girls, they are pretty much my constant side kicks. They see how I handle, and don’t handle, life. I am completely aware their eyes are always on me.
Sometimes, I can handle it with grace, but much of the time I am second guessing how I handle it all. I want my reactions to be balanced and healthy. I am used to finding that difficult with the Bipolar in my life, but recently it has gotten complicated for another reason…sports.
My girls (2 of them anyway) have joined the world of sports–cross country to be exact.
It is the one sport I sort of, not really, know anything about and is truly the only sport I have ever enjoyed. Seeing them get to run at practice reminded me how much I love to run and has me back out there pounding out a few miles. I love having them run.
One, is a little older than the other, a little more serious about life, and a little more interested in running.
She even joined me on my Sunday morning run last week.
I am so proud.
Now, don’t get me wrong, Sue is also going to practice, never complains about it, and seems to have fun, but she just hasn’t caught the running bug. She’s there for the socializing; Caitlyn says, “I want to run, that’s what I am there for!!!”
I am so pleased with both of them, but I want to just gush all over Caitlyn. I love her can do spirit, she never gives up, I love her desire to run, I love her determination. I like to talk to her about running. I am seeking out help from others who run to help Caitlyn become a stronger runner. I’m not kidding, I could go on forever about how proud I am of Caitlyns’ running.
But I don’t want to discourage Sue. I want her to grow to love it, if it turns out to be her thing. I want her to work hard. I want her to know I care about her skills too.
Balancing the two is hard!!!
How do I encourage them both when their experiences so far are very different? How do I let Caitlyn know how pleased I am without seeming to diminish Sue’s progress? How do I show my pride in Caitlyn, without making Sue feel like she has to prove herself to me by running?
I sincerely don’t know how to balance it all. I catch myself when I feel like I am going overboard. I try to remember to speak highly of both of them within their hearing.
I try. I really do.