The last week has been kind of big. Not in earth shattering changes, but in conversations that needed to happen, personal realizations and an understanding that I have a lot of work ahead of me.
Have you ever had a week like that, where you know you have changed. And yet, the world around you just keeps going, moving. And you can’t understand why no one else is feeling the same emotional earthquake as you?
This is one of those weeks.
And it is good.
I am not quite ready to share all that has shook my world, but here’s a bit:
1. I am glad I am doing therapy along with medication.
2. I think sorting things out, while uncomfortable, will make me more confident in my healing from depression.
3. It is a valuable exercise in your marriage or close relationships to have the other person describe you, who you are, to you. I was blessed beyond words to hear how my husband views me. He sees a me that gives me so much hope for today and the future. He sees a me that is capable of growing and reaching. He sees a me that I can envision him wanting to stay married to.
4. It is a hard comfort, but a comfort nonetheless, to spill some “truths” you know about yourself and have the hearer say, “I hear the depression talking.” My first reaction was to take it as a brush off of how I am feeling, but then I thought, no, if these truths I know, aren’t true, I am going to walk in more wholeness and healing (some day).
5. You never know, when you wake up, when a day is going to turn into one that involves some heavy thinking and conversations.
6. It’s really good to hear that someone is seeing the effort you are putting forth in a challenging area of life.
7. And, to not be too crazy serious, it is WONDERFUL to see muscle developing where you’ve never seen it previously.
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