Here we are at another Monday and my heart is searching for those things for which I am thankful. It’s not that I have any shortage of things to be thanking the Lord. On the contrary, He has been abundantly good in the ease and struggles of life. Rather, I am looking for variety, but I find in this season of life I am dwelling on just a few things. I am dwelling on survival and protection. My survival as I deal with postpartum depression and protecting my children from my ups and downs. I want them to thrive, not survive. I want them to be blessed throughout this experience and I want them to know they are loved. I will walk through whatever I must for them.
But the Lord has not left me in this journey alone. I have my amazing husband, my wonderful midwife, my family, friends and the blogging community. For a time I withdrew from much socialization, including the electronic world. Life was just too heavy; I am slowly coming out of that. And in my baby steps, I have found the amazing support of the blogging and twitter community. I am often led to blog posts that encourage me at just the moment I need them. Today was one such day. Through someone’s retweet on twitter I found this post. I was drawn to it because it is about my life verse, Psalm 68:19–How glorious is our Lord who daily bears our burdens and has become our salvation. And today I needed it.
I had 6 good days in a row and was ready to declare victory over the depression, but it snuck up and got me again. And within moments I found that post. It was just what I needed. The author and I started chatting on twitter and she sent me a link to this post. It expressed much that I have not yet put into words. I appreciate her writing and insights very much.
Now let me veer a little bit from my train of thought to mention, my depression manifest differently than some. I do not struggle to function, rather I struggle with slowing down. I find I must be busy all the time. I cannot bear to have time on my hands. This works well for a household with three small children. **I only mention this in case there are other people like me who are dealing with depression but find they are overly energetic. That can still be a sign of depression and can be challenging.
Back to my regularly scheduled train of thought…
Other bloggers have blessed me immensely as I walk in the woods and the meadows of depression. I cannot begin to mention them all but I do want to talk about two ladies, Ali at An Ordinary Mom and Kristen at We are THAT Family. I just love both of these blogs. An Ordinary Mom hosts a weekly snapshot post on Saturdays. I am having a lot of fun looking for times to take pictures of my lovely girls. It is fun now and I know will be a treasure when they are grown. We are THAT family has blessed me with the Mercy House Kenya ministry. I have worked on a couple things for them which have nicely filled my need to be busy. *Remember, I will soon be asking you to help and get involved by donating supplies for this ministry. I also enjoy Kristen’s Works for Me Wednesday blog hop. It gives me an outlet of thought that does not involve the depression and for that I am very thankful.
I am also thankful for this blog hop I have been doing on Mondays, Multitude Monday at A Holy Experience.
I invite to go to Ann’s post and those of so many others who are choosing, as I am, to be thankful. Won’t you join us?