Category Archives: weight loss

It’s Getting Real Here Folks

I have packed on a lot of pounds.

I could list off so many excuses.  And I will concede to one.  Some of the psychiatric medications I was on caused hunger.  I didn’t believe it was the meds, but I recently went off depakote and was shocked at how much my appetite immediately decreased.  I dropped 3 lbs.

I have a lot more of than that to lose.  Like 15 times that.

Ugh.

I hate how I look.  I hate how I feel in this body.  It preys on my mind.  I feel horrible about myself.

And as I mentioned to a friend and my hubby, the worst part of feeling fat and ugly as a parent is the guilt over how you are teaching your children to eat, so now you feel fat, ugly and guilty.

So far my girls are all very healthy and strong,  but if my eating is making me fat, what will it eventually do to them?  I can’t face doing that to them.

The time to change is now.

I have successfully lost weight on weight watchers twice.  The second time I added a lot of exercise and it was phenomenal.

So I got back on the treadmill yesterday and today.  Now on to the food.  The best part of weight watchers is the fact that fruits and veggies are not restricted and there is a huge proliferation of recipes to be had.

Here we go.

I have started a pinterest board with recipes that look good, I am exercising and using the fooducate application on my phone to try and make good choices.

This is my before…

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Please pray, wish good luck to us as we undertake this overhaul.  It will truly be a big change, especially for my picky eaters–Sue and Patrice.  I know they won’t like it, but I have battled my weight since fifth grade and I just can’t set them up to do the same.  I have to be strong and smart for my girls.

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(They weren’t that in to getting their picture taken.  Sigh)

Now off to more menu planning and cleaning this house…anybody want to come over and help with that cleaning part so I can continue to obsess over eating choices???  Anyone…at all???

Lovely

So my lovely Caitlyn

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made what she thought was a funny joke yesterday. She said we were having a fourth baby (we’re not). Then started laughing hysterically. Then she said, “you know why it’s funny? I say it because of your fat.”

I hurt like a big dog. Too bad it is true. Really true. I have a lot of weight to lose. And somehow I have to lose how much her comment hurt.

Have your kids said something really hurtful? How did you get over it?

Wheat Free Update

One thing I have to say about the hospital is even on the psychiatric unit they give you lots of choices for your food.  It helps.  They decide when you eat, but you get to decide what and how much.  Most of the time.

My first couple of days they sent up a standard tray, which was full of wheat and gluten, but then I got to choose and was able to get back on track.  And by doing so, I lost 2.5 lbs while in the hospital!

I am slowly getting back to where I was.  Someday I will actually be at pre-baby weight.  The journey has been long  and full of potholes, but I am getting comfortable with the wheat free eating, which will only help me get where I belong.

Please go over and congratulate Alicia on her accomplishment!

 

Exercise–Weight Loss Wednesday

Recently exercise has gotten hard.  Not in the wow, I don’t feel like it, but  in, here I am out here running and I can only make it a mile or two without walking when I used to run 6 miles quite easily, just a few weeks ago.

The negative self talk is hard to contain as I literally cry out to God asking Him why it is so hard.  And since weaning Patrice, I have been terrified the Multiple Sclerosis will come out of remission; this fear has been intensified by the struggle to run and some blurry vision issues.

Yesterday I was freaking out and continuing to cry out to God.  When my hands started to shake a little bit again.  So I did something I RARELY do,  I looked up the medication I am and read the side effects.  Listed–weakness and possibility of enlarging eyes.  I called my doctor and we talked at length about changing my medication.

He patiently listened.  He was willing to change my medication, but it wouldn’t be quite that simple.  I would have to go off the anti depressant completely and wait a while before starting another to see if the weakness improved.

I love running.  I stressed that to him.  He again agreed to take me off the medication and explained the need to be off any of that type for a while before starting a new treatment.

I really love running.  We discussed some more, but ultimately I had to decide to stay on the medication.  No matter how much I love running, I can’t risk stopping my medication completely right now.  I love my family and myself too much to risk the spiral into depression that could engulf me.

I’m going to continue to run as much as I can, up my walking and bike riding so that I am as strong as possible and will continue on my weight loss journey with www.myfitnesspal.com.  And I will pray this frustrating side effect goes away.  Won’t you please join me?  Please pray my strength will be restored.  And I will again be pounding out the miles in time for my 1/2 marathon on May 20.

Thankfully the vision issue, after going to the eye doctor, appears to be dry eyes caused by the medication.  Who knew that could cause blurry vision.  The doctor has me trying a better contact and rewetting drops.  The improvement in my sight was immediate.  Praise the Lord.

Come see what Alicia says about family exercise.

Weight Loss Wednesday–Trying Something New

I’ve done well on weight watchers.  I have lost 15 lbs since starting just before Thanksgiving, but honestly, I think most of it has been the exercise and loosely following the eating.

As I have mentioned, many times, I am doing a fitness challenge with a friend at work.  I have to say that has really been the biggest part of my weight loss.

But I have wondered…

As I’ve also mentioned, I am struggling with depression.  I am on new medications and have a great doctor I am working with…but is there more I can do?

I know sugar affects me.  I can feel my anxiety go through the roof when I decide to have a brownie, piece of cake or dessert.  And I keep torturing myself by eating these evil things.

And I wonder…

Are there other foods that mess with me mentally?  Is there more I can do to help myself by getting serious about my eating like I have my exercise?

I bought a book, Engine 2 Diet, and read it last week while in the hospital.  It is a vegan diet 28-day challenge by Rip Esselstyn, an athlete and a firefighter that wanted to help his fellow firefighters improve their health with a plant-based diet.

And I am going to try it.

NOT because I think diet can fix my depression.  Trust me, I will continue with my medications and doctor appointments.  But I do think I can make better eating choices that MIGHT help me feel better mentally while I improve myself physically.

I have gotten lots of encouragement and ideas from friends on twitter.  Here we go…

How would you prepare for such a radical eating change?  How would you convince your hubby this is a good idea?  And won’t cost too much.  Would you have your kids eat vegan as well?

Linking with Alicia.

Suwwwweeeetttt Weight Loss Wednesday

So, Tuesday is weigh in day round these parts.  And today I got a great number–1.2 lbs lost for a total of 15.4 lbs gone.  Wooohoooo!!!!

Next week’s weigh in is going to be different than any other time I’ve been trying to lose weight for the last 6 years…I will no longer be nursing a baby.  I know that decreases my weight watchers points, but other than that…

Some say it will speed up my loss, some say it will slow it down.  I don’t know.  I really don’t.  Come back next week to see what happens!

 

First the Big News–Weight Loss Wednesday

First the big news–I lost .8 pounds this week for a total of 14.2 lbs lost which put me over the goal of 10% of my starting body weight lost.

This has been the week of 8s.  I bought and wore a pair of size 8 jeans for the first time in 8 years, I lost .8 pounds and my friend Alicia lost 2.8 pounds.  I love fun coincidences like that!

I think one of the big reasons I have made it this far is how my snacking has changed.  Snacks used to be whatever fun thing I could find to eat.  Now they are different–carrots, fruit, natural applesauce, mini peppers, kiwi, light kettle corn, pop chips.

And I snack a lot.  It takes lots of munching to get me through the day.  Bless the scientists of weight watchers for making all fruit and most veggies “free” foods.  It makes eating this way, so much easier and I think healthier.  As a doctor friend of mine said, “I’ve never understood diets that restrict fruits and veggies.”

Next goal–prebaby weight.  Yup,  it’s amazing that I still have weight to lose after Patrice, but I do.  I am a very slow loser while nursing.  I am not one of those women that see the weight just fall off.  Sigh.  Three more pounds to go…then on to wedding weight…4 more pounds…and then within my normal range…6 pounds…

Wow, writing that out is motivating to make better choices.  Snacking my way there of course!

Have to work on this…

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Little Bit of Progress–Disappointed it Wasn’t More

I lost 1 pound last week, which put me within 1 pound of losing 10 percent of my body weight.  I really thought I would do it…but my body did not allow me to hit the goal.

I will admit, I was very disappointed when I lost .4.  I did not succeed in hiding my disappointment from the lady who had to give me the mixed news.  I mean, I lost weight.  Who can be upset about that?  But it was less than 1/2 of what I thought I would hit. 

Have you ever lost weight and been disappointed?  How did you regroup?  Part of my process of regaining was realizing I wore a single digit blazer to work for the second day in a row.  It has been a long time since I did that. 

I felt really cute today so I had hubby take a picture…I thought one picture made me look horribly fat so I made him take another…

 

Linking up with the lovely Alicia!

Weight Loss Wednesday–Dinner

First, for the good news…I lost another pound this week for a total of 13 lbs.  I am so close to 10% lost (go ahead do the math on about how much I’ve been carrying on my 4 ft. 9 inch frame).  My wedding ring now spins on my finger.  I’m going to have to do something to keep it on while I continue to lose.  My gift to me will be sizing my ring–down!

Dinner is definitely my failure in each day.  My hubby cooks and is wonderful cook.  But he, and the girls, are not doing weight watchers.  So my plan each day is to track my breakfast and lunch and try to eat a sensible dinner.  Right now, it is working okay, but I am sure as I get closer to my goal, I will have to sort out my dinners.

One way I try to influence it more, is by doing meals in the crockpot.  It helps out hubby and gives me a little more control.  This last week I cooked a whole chicken in the crockpot.  It was super easy.

1 whole chicken, frozen or thawed.

seasonings

Put whole chicken in crockpot, season as desired.  Cook 5-8 hours.  Remove.  It will come apart very easily.

We ate it first as baked chicken, the second night we made chicken soup.

I also recently made Chicken Fajita Stirfry and Crockpot Lasagna.

I could use more ideas.  What are your go tos for cooking?  I am definitely going to be checking out some of Alicia’s ideas.

Weight Loss Wednesday

I continue to lose, bit by bit; I have now lost 12 lbs, which is 1/3 the way to my final personal goal. I am really hoping to lose 2 lbs this week to hit another weight watchers goal.

I have got to get better at tracking. I do great with breakfast and lunch. Monday through Friday I eat virtually the same thing. But tracking dinner…seems to be a lost cause. I am going to sign up for my free trial of e-tools and see if that helps. My current meetings for weight watchers ends March 24 so am trying to decide wether to reup for meetings or go to on-line. On-line is cheaper but I’m not sure it will work for me.

This week we are looking at lunch for weight loss wednesday. I feel like I eat non-stop from the time I get to work until lunch. I eat my breakfast sandwich when I get to work, and then fruit and veggies til lunch. Typically lunch is a frozen meal. I like them. I actually get a lot more taste variety eating those then I would in my “normal” life, plus they are pre-made so no work on my part!

What is your go-to food for lunches? What works for you?

Congratulations to Alicia for her great weight loss! I love her goal and am going to adopt it as well, after a goal of 2 lbs this week, from there on out I am going to work for 1.5 a week.