Medication What?

Let me introduce myself.  I am Judgy Judge Judgerton.

Yup.

I would hear of people prescribed medications for mental health issues and how they wouldn’t take them.  Or they would only take them until they felt better.

I thought they were idiots.

Now I can look in the mirror to find one of those idiots.

I try to take them all.

There are just three that mess with me.  And I hate them.

My longest standing medication of my current medley still makes em dog sick some nights.  Dry heaving isn’t quite as glamorous as it sounds.

And then there is one I am trying for the third time.  It has some great benefits, but it causes muscle weakness and issues with my running.  Last time I was on it, it got so bad I could no longer run and it took a couple years to get back to where I a now.  I used to run 6-10 miles a day.  Now 2 is a victory.  Honestly, the running helps more than the medication.  I’m not sure what to do.

The third one does it’s job beautifully.  It keeps me very calm…and knocks me right out.  Christmas?  It was the best I have had in a long time, but I slept 14 hours that day.

I hate these three medications.  I totally understand why people choose not to be medication compliant.  I am so torn about what to do.  I see the medications robbing me of things, but I also see bits of improvement.  Is that the medication or the running and exercise?  I don’t know.  I don’t know what to think or feel.

I’m just too tired.