If you want something done, ask the busiest person? No, just ask the person who can’t say no.
Last year, I was asked to run for a position on our co-op board. I won. I ran unopposed. Now, don’t even think I am doing this on my own…the other board members do so dang much. And my committee members. They do so much. And I am so thankful.
People think I do everything last minute because I am so busy—nope, it is because a lot of times my anxiety keeps me from doing any of the things, so I have to wait until my brain gives me a bit of slack.
I’ve been fighting a hypomania phase with the bipolar for what feels like months and I finally found out why–I have been. I was doubting that fact because then it would feel different…turns out, according to the doctor, I am in a mixed episode.
Yeah, that right there would explain it.
The yo-yo. The back and forth.
Right now I feel like I am collapsing into it.
A family emergency last week pulled me out of my routine that helps protect me.
Some other struggles have me thinking too much.
My pride has me smarting over an e-mail where I want to scream, hey, I did the work, I laid the groundwork…why are they getting credit?
That one hurts and exacerbates the other issues.
I have spent a lot of time thinking the bipolar was no longer an issue.
I was wrong.
